Give me gravity.
Give me clarity.
Give me something to rely on.

Pride is a bitch.

Anger is a whore.

Blameshift is a slut.

At the end of the day, we end up being everything we experience. Everything we represent.

I just want to burn. I want to feel the heat peel my skin.

I want it all to come tumbling down. Fall on me and break me. Break me over and over again. Into fucking pieces.

But at the same time, I just want you to hug me.

Give me time to reason,
give me time to think it through
Passing through the season,
where I cheated you

I will always have a cross to wear,
but the bolt reminds me I was there
So give me strength,
to face this test tonight

If only I could turn back time,
If only I had saved what I still had
If only I could turn back time,
I would stay for the night... for the night
Claim your right to science,

Claim your right to see the truth
Though my pangs of conscience,
Will drill a hole in you

I've seen it coming like a thief in the night,
I've seen it coming from the flesh of your light

So give me strength,
to face this test tonight

If only I could turn back time,
if only I had saved what I still had
if only I could turn back time,
I would stay.

The bolt reminds me I was there
the bolt reminds me I was there


-Aqua.

"Now let me tell you how these steps go.
Step 1, tell me what have I done
Step 2, you better believe
Step 3, you'll never be like me so
Na-na-na-na-na-na-na-no no"

- Isles and Glaciers

Hey.



I wonder how it's like to drown.
Or choke on something.
How does it feel to fall and hit the ground,
Or have a dagger pierce you in between your torso and your chest.
Or maybe even through the rib cage and straight into your heart.
A bullet into the head; How does that feel like?

Pain.

People kill themselves everyday. Why do they chose to kill themselves the way they decide to kill themselves? I know.

They drown themselves because they themselves are already drowning in their own sorrow. Their entire life involved them in drowning. Drowning in their worries, their problems.

People choke themselves because they already choke on so much each day. Money, supplements, routined fucks. So they choke themselves with a noose, or on gas. Whatever they find that they can choke the fuck on.

They jump from a great height to hit the ground. Why? Because every day they fall. You fall for tricks, lies, promises that will never be fulfilled, the beauty of hope, hurt. And what does this lead them into? Falling into nothing but a huge pile of shit. Try to pick themselves up but they only trip again and fall back into another pile of shit.

And piercing themselves. They do that because they are always stabbed anyways. Stabbed by people they believe they could trust. Stabbed by the fact that even though they believed in something, it turned out to be a sack of bullshit. That's when the dagger comes in. Can you blame them?

And then there's the bullet through the head. The fastest way to die. Every day, the battle is between your mind and the world. The mind is in your head. The life they live is fast. And sometimes we all go too fast we miss certain things that shouldn't be missed. When things fall out of place, that's when we realise we missed that certain thing. And there's no way to go back. So we die the fastest way we can.

Some consume the suicide itself, because they are consumed by the predicaments they face. So they consume poison, or pills.

All this they do, not just because they give up. But because you gave up on them. So the next time you hear of someone consumed by suicide itself, don't you fucking dare call them cowards. They didn't fail.

You failed them.

Now you know. And I know it's quite scary, that I might know why these people do what they do. Does this mean I'm fucked? Or that I'm contemplating death?

No.

It could just mean, that I'm motherfucking bored.

See you.

Cheers

Hey.


Listen.


Close your eyes.


Really tight.


Open your eyes. Stare into anything that emits light.


Close your eyes again.


What do you feel? How do you feel?


More importantly, what do you see?


All the time, we tell ourselves that it hurts when we stare into something so bright. But do we ever tell ourselves to look beyond the light? Look beyond the obvious and you will find something that will help you disregard the pain and the mere thought of it. After some time, the thing that you see beyond that brightness will comfort you; Inside and outside. Think about it: Is there anything at all that emits light, that we do not find beautiful and intriguing?




When I close my eyes, I see you. When I look at you, I see brightness. Yes, see it. When I close my eyes again, I see your silhouette because I am blinded by the beauty that seeps from within you, like a bright light, and every time I close and open my eyes again all I see is you and you and you and you.


Sometimes I wish you could see what I see. I wish you can be blinded like I am. Because when I am blind, I see things so much clearer. I see it like how it should be seen. And you are the reason.

I feel safe.I feel harmonious. I feel you.


Goodnight Universe.

Goodnight, Star (:



I wanna break every clock
The hands of time will never move again.
And we will stay in this moment.
Stay in this moment for the rest of our lives.


You. Me. Untouchable.